Title: Letters Over the Sea
Series:: N/A
Author: Gytha and Prembone
Archive: Here only, last known
Pairing: Frodo/Sam
Category: Angst
Rating: PG
Warnings: None
Spoilers: Mild spoilers for ROTK
Summary: When Sam found he needed help with his ending for The Downfall of the Lord of the Rings and the Return of the King, he asked the elves if they could possibly deliver a certain letter...
Disclaimer: This is written solely for our own entertainment and that of other like-minded souls, and is not intended to infringe on the rights of the estate of J.R.R. Tolkien.
Feedback: To be sent to archive owner (resqdog51**AT**pobox**DOT**com) for forwarding to authors.
Notes: (from Gytha) This was originally written back in 1999, and to Prem's and my amusement has apparently become somewhat of a fandom classic. The original idea, as I recall, was sparked from a post on rec.arts.books.tolkien when someone asked how had Sam, who Frodo left 'the last pages' for, could have known what Frodo saw when he went to the Blessed Realm. Someone else joked that maybe Frodo tossed a bottle over the side of the ship with a description of his voyage. A couple of days later I woke up with an idea in my head of an exchange of letters between Sam and Frodo, scribbled them down and emailed them to Prembone, with whom I'd been corresponding with, saying I couldn't quite get Sam's voice right and did she have any suggestions, and would she be interested in writing this with me as I had a feeling this would be a two-author job. Prem promptly responded with a fix of the original Sam letter and a reply to Frodo's letter in-character as Sam. I replied in character as Frodo, and so began a hectic month or so with midnight checks of email for the next installment, mad typing of replies as soon as the next installment was received, and a lot of extraneous correspondence...




Letters Over The Sea

by Gytha and Prembone



Dear Mr. Frodo,

You said the last of yours and Mr. Bilbo's story was left for me, but quite frankly you've let me in a bit of a fix as to ending it.

I've written as far as me watching that ship go, and of the long ride home, but it's awfully gloomy as it stands -- not the way I should like to end the story.

I don't know as this can be done, but I should like to have your account, a word or two to let us know you got there safe and sound, if you would. Some Elves passing through on their way to the Havens very kindly agreed to take my letter with them over the Sea. Like as not, it won't be allowed for you to write back, but surely they'll see no harm in letting you hear from the home folks, at least. And if you can't write, you can't, and I'll just have to fall back on my own poor wits for a proper ending.

How are you and Mr. Bilbo liking it there?

Me and Rosie and Elanor are fine, as is your little namesake. Six months he is, but he's already a rascal.

Yours,

Sam Gamgee









My dearest Sam,

How nice to hear from you again! I didn't think it could be done.

My journey? If you go back in the Book to before Bree, in our last night at Tom Bombadil's, I wrote about I dream I had that was remarkably prescient: about the rain being drawn back and the sunrise? Odd, really -- positively uncanny.

Use that for a description of my journey's ending; it will suffice.

Bilbo is fine: he only sleeps half of the time now. But he contrives to nod off amid the company of Elves, so he can listen to their talk and their songs even while he dozes. So he's quite happy.

As for me, I feel a little better. I still shiver, and have fell dreams, and my wounds pain me, but it is lessening a little. But I get by. Oddly enough, what seems to help most is either walking on the beach or just sitting or lying there with the sounds of the waves in my ears and the sea-spray on my face. The sun is warm here, too, which helps.

But I am listening to elven-songs and elven-lore. And improving my knowlege of the language. I found out, by the way, that I misheard; it's omentielvo, not omentielmo. Can you make a note to that effect?

So how many years has it been? Time runs slowly here, like in Lorien but even more so. How old is little Elanor now? Not very, if Frodo-lad is still that young, I expect. (I do hope he's not too much of a rascal -- especially if he's only crawling yet.) Are you Mayor, or is it still dear old Will Whitfoot? And Merry and Pippin? What are those two up to?

I'm glad to hear you are all well, dear Sam. It heals my heart to know that you have your own life, and you still have so much to do, and be, as I said.

Do think of me from time to time.

My best,

Frodo









Dear Mr. Frodo:

Well, if that don't beat all. Truth to tell, I didn't have much hope of them letting my letter get to you, and here they've gone and sent one back. Don't know how, seeing as there's no coming back from that side of the sea, but I'm mighty grateful, however they contrive it.

My own life? Yes, sir, I have. And you have your own. And I reckon there's no use pining for what can't be helped, but if you don't mind my speaking plainly -- I seem to do that a lot more, of late -- many's the time I wish I'd said something to you, back at the Woody End, back on the week's journey to the Havens. I suppose that's why you didn't say nothing sooner; you knew I'd try and talk you out of it, and I would. Still don't know why I didn't try, even then, but with all those great folk about, well, and me being just plain, simple Sam Gamgee of the Shire, who was I to argue? Ah, but if I could do it again -- but there, that's not helping you any, is it? And of course you're in a much better place, now, so of course it's all for the best.

The sea, you say? Funny, sir. I thought once you got to the other side of the sea, you'd be content. But of course you are. Don't mind me, Mr. Frodo. On your side, the sea's a thing of peace, no doubt.

But, here, you wished a bit of news, and a bit of cheer, I shouldn't wonder. Elanor is three, already, with beautiful golden hair by which even Lorien's flower, I daresay, would pale. And bright, she is, for so young. I wish you could see her, hear her talk! Our Frodo-lad -- we call him Fro for short -- he's toddling about and into everything he can get his hands on. And we just found out that Rosie's expecting again. I told her this one's named after her, if it's a lass; she wants to name one after me, but I'd rather if it's a lad, we name him either Merry or Pippin, can't rightly make up my mind which one. I suppose whichever we don't use can be given to the next boy-child, but then sure as we do that we'll have nothing but a home full of lasses, and then the one who didn't get chosen will feel a bit slighted. Ah, can't be helped, I reckon. You take what you're given, and give thanks for such as you get.

The Shire goes on as ever. A body would think nothing ever happened, to look at folks. We've got the king's protection, all is well, but I sometimes catch a look in the eye, catch a fellow off his guard, and wonder if it's all really so quickly forgot as that. Hard to tell with hobbit-folk, ain't it, sir? You think all is well, when it's not, and who can help folk who don't let on they need help.

I do a bit of deputy work for old Will Whitfoot now and again, but he's talking of stepping down when this term's up, and I begin to wonder if you were right and I really shall be Mayor someday. Maybe I can do a bit of good for the Shire.

There's not a day goes by that I don't think of you. Glad I am to hear your troubles are easing, though when I think of what you told me, having so much to be and to do, I wonder -- but don't mind me. You and the wise folk knew best, I'm sure.

Oh -- almost forgot. Merry and Pippin do naught but ride all over the Shire and out to Bree and back and buy enough ale for their parties to float an Elven-ship there and back again. There, I hope that gave you a smile.

"Omentielvo" is duly noted, sir, and has been corrected.

Thinking of you always, I remain

Your Sam









My dearest Sam,

I admit to being flabbergasted myself. I, too, would have assumed that once I set out for the Undying Lands, that would be our final parting, unless some day you should follow me. I certainly never envisaged something like the Quick Post Service!

But no going back? I'm not so sure; Gandalf once said that Glorfindel, at least, had dwelt in the Blessed Realm and returned to Middle Earth. So there must be some way back; for Elves, anyway. But for a Hobbit of the Shire? I do not know.

No, my dear ass, I don't mind you speaking plainly in the least. Not that it should stop you if I did. I'm no longer your master, and as far as I'm concerned I haven't been for quite some time. Especially after all we went through together. I thought you understood that!

But, oh, Sam. You are angry with me, aren't you, for going? I do wish I hadn't had to, Sam, but I was getting worse, not better; I was feeling more and more wretched and more and more hopeless about ever having surcease from my wounds. Truth to tell, I feared going mad after a couple more years of it...

But don't call yourself any of your Gaffer's hard names (how is your Gaffer, by the way?) for not trying to talk me out of going; by the time we set out, my mind was quite made up. That it was the only way, that is. But all for the best, dear Sam? I feel as torn in two as you were feeling when I left. Even if my wounds do seem to be healing. Well, easing. But I'm not content, dear Sam; far from it. Missing you seems to hurt more than all my wounds and weariness put together. Even if my wounds are healing and the sea is a thing of peace; still, I wonder if I could have had the same result by travelling to Gondor and sitting on the seafront at Dol Amroth for a year or so.

But I'm sorry; this won't be making things any easier for you.

It was good to hear the news, even if it did make me acutely homesick. But then, it's a joy to hear things are going well for you. I'm not surprised to hear Elanor is turning out to be something special; of course your (and Rose's) children would be special. And my young namesake does sound like an inquisitive rascal! I'm told I used to be like that myself. Obviously I changed...

As for naming your next little boy, I'd not fret about the names; if you do name him Merry, simply tell Master Peregrin that Merry-lad came first because he was the eldest, and the next lad will be named for him, should there be one. Either way, Pippin shouldn't feel slighted. As you said, it may be tempting fate to talk about one lad, let alone two, but somehow I don't feel you need worry. And as you so rightly said, you take whatever comes and give thanks. And so long as they're healthy and happy, it doesn't matter, does it? You have an uncommon wisdom, Sam, even if you do say it's "plain old hobbit sense".

And besides, if Merry and Pippin have sons of their own, there'll undoubtedly be a Merry Took and a Pippin Brandybuck running around Bucklebury and the Smials.

Well, well. So it seems I wasn't the only one in the Shire affected for the worse by the War of the Ring... but my dear Sam, was "who can help folk who don't let on they don't need help" a gentle dig at me?

"Do a bit of good for the Shire?" Sam, if you never did anything else in your lifetime, you've done immeasurable good for our dear Shire already. Twice over; first by my side and then with the Lady Galadriel's box. But of course you'll be Mayor, and one of the best; your "plain hobbit sense" will sustain the Shire as it sustained me on our road. I meant it when I said I wouldn't have got far without you, you know.

Oh Sam. You're never far from my thoughts. I'd say "I think of you every day," but time passes differently here... Yes, my troubles are easing, though I begin to wonder if my wounds will every be truly healed, even here... Did I know best? I wonder.

And you wonder -- what? Do say what you were going to say, Sam; I could do with some plain hobbit sense. It's in short supply here; there's only me and Bilbo here, and Bilbo is sleeping half the time and off talking to the Elves the rest. Which reminds me; thank you for "omentielvo". Bilbo was most amused, until Gandalf pointed out that the failure was probably his as teacher. That had the Elves laughing for days; Bilbo and Gandalf having what could politely be called an "impassioned debate" (albeit half in jest) was food for amusement, I admit.

And as for laughing, your story of Merry and Pippin cornering the market on the ale (and willowbark, I would expect) made me laugh harder than I can remember doing for a long time, not merely smile. It got me some quizzical looks too, I can tell you; Bilbo and Gandalf's set-to with words notwithstanding, the Elves here aren't much for laughing. Smiling, yes, laughing, no. But no matter.

Do write again, now that we know it's possible. It's a link I didn't know I missed -- nay, needed -- until I no longer had it.

With gratitude,

Your friend

Frodo









Dear Frodo:

Ah! To hear you laugh, again! Or that you did laugh, I should say. I can't rightly remember when I last heard your laughter. Meaning before you left, of course.

Well, it turned out that Rosie bore another girl-child, so now we have a Rosie-lass, and Masters Meriadoc and Pippin shall have to wait a while, or settle down from their bachelor life and have sons of their own, as you say.

Angry with you? Not really angry, sir -- oh, I forget. Habit, you understand. But not really angry at you. Hurting, is more like it. Wondering why you kept it all to yourself and couldn't tell even your Sam, why you led me on to think you were going on a visit to Rivendell, instead of leaving me, leaving the Shire, leaving everything, forever.

But more than that, Frodo, I was hurting for you. Oh, I know that Gandalf and Elrond understood these things better than I -- though your words are kind, I'm no Wizard nor Elf -- but the thing that grieved me most of all wasn't just you leaving and me staying. I guess as a body gets older, one learns that nothing stays the same forever. Things change. And we do need that, I think, however much we might wish they didn't.

No. It wasn't just us being apart. It was seeing you give it all up, seeing you lose hope; that's what pained me so bad. We got through the Quest, we did, got rescued when it seemed all hope was lost. You thought all along you had to die, to give it all up, and I said don't lose hope, we may yet go back, and we did. No, it wasn't the same. I know. It'll never be the same for none of us, not even those giddy fool lads at Crickhollow. But they'll come around. But we lived, we survived -- we gave up some, but we didn't have to give up all, after all. I sometimes think you had your mind so set on losing it all that you didn't know how to keep what you still had. But there, now I'm hardly making no sense.

I do admit that I was thinking of you when I wrote about "folks who don't let folks know they need help." Maybe I could have helped, somehow -- I don't know how, but at least been by your side till the old shadows passed, which they always did. If only you'd not lost sight of that! Too many if only's, here. Still, I don't understand how you could try to bear all of that all alone and not tell your Sam. Didn't I help you bear the Ring? Even when you said there was no helping you, even when there was no taking it from you, didn't I help you, even then? If I could share a burden like that, don't you think I could have stood up to those shadows and told them a thing or two?

But to tell me, you'd have then had to tell me you were thinking to leave. And you know I'd have given you an argument, don't tell me that wasn't why you kept mum for all those long months. If your mind was so set as all that, you'd not have waited until we were standing before all the high Elven folk to tell me the news. Why not have told me the night before, when we were camped on the hills? Because we were alone, and you knew that alone, once past the shock, I'd have kept us both up all night trying to talk you out of it. Don't tell me you had your mind made up. You knew if you gave me the chance to talk you out of going, you might have been talked out. And as you said, you feared to stay, feared you could not bear it. Well, not so long as you tried to bear it all alone, you surely couldn't. You let your fears do your thinking for you, Frodo, and let go of hope, and I should think you'd learned by then that's always a mistake.

Well, there's a bit of plain speaking, if you please.

And now you say you're not content. That wrenches, it does; my one consolation was that you would find the peace you said you couldn't find here. Oh, how I wish you'd said something, back when the choice was still to be made! Maybe I couldn't have taken the pain from you, but maybe I could have made you see more clear.

Oh, almost forgot. What was I going to say? Wondering. Thinking how you said I had so much to be and to do, yet; when you said it, I thought to myself, "And so do you, Mr. Frodo. "And if you insist on my being plain-spoken, well, here it is: I still think you did.

If you could go back, would you choose differently? Just wondering, you understand. It's all water under the bridge, as my Gaffer would say -- he's getting frail, these days, but still ready with a word or two or ten -- but I can't help wondering. Of course I hope you were right, that my time will come, and I'll be seeing you again someday, but that don't make up for you missing all the years you could have had in the Shire. Do you ever think that it might have been worth the hurts, or that the hurts might have got better, given the chance? Two years is all you gave it, and that hardly. Two years isn't much of a chance for hurts that run that deep. I should know.

Well, this does ramble on, and probably to more harm than good. You may not be my master no more, but you remain my dearest of friends, and I'd not want to be grieving you where I shouldn't. But you did ask for plain speaking and hobbit sense, and I hope you find those in my words, and pardon anything that might be out of place.

I don't know how long they'll allow us these letters, or keep sending ships, but should you hear from me again, I expect it will be as Mayor Samwise. I do wonder how you knew that! Still, ever since you said it, it's been on my mind to give it a try, and now it seems a goodly number of the Shirefolk wish to see me run in '27. That's over a year from now, but they do say the time to start preparing is now. Mayor Will has given me his full recommendation, and I guess it don't get any better than that.

When you sit by the sea, think of me sitting on the other side thinking of you.

Fondly,

Your Sam









My dear Sam,

First of all, congratulations on the safe arrival of little Rosie-lass. To both you and Rose -- if Rose knows you and I are corresponding.

I didn't laugh when I heard the news, but I went around with a smile broad enough to split my face. I'm sure some wondered what I was smiling about, as it's rare that I do smile here... Did I mention that Gandalf seeks me out as soon as one of your letters comes (and I've had time to read it) and asks for the news? I don't know how he always knows... but he invariably asks me for the news, then goes off with a thoughtful look on his face. He's as close as ever. But he does send his congratulations as well.

But I don't remember when I last laughed over there, either...

You know, Sam, I can't think why I didn't tell you, either. It all seems like a dark dream, now... I think it was in my mind that I didn't want to burden you further, since you were so happy in your new life and I didn't want to cloud your joy. I had it in my mind that by leaving it until the last possible moment to tell you, I would give you the least pain. I was wrong, wasn't I?

No, you are making sense. But I felt I was losing it all -- the pain was getting worse, not better, the longer I was there. Yes, the shadows passed, but they seemed to press closer and closer each time -- I'll not tell of some of the things I felt and saw on the dark days. And even in between; it was like I was slowly slipping into a dark mere and there was nothing I could do about it. I could see that there was still beauty and happiness in Middle Earth, and the Shire, and even for me -- and you do know that your joys gave me the deepest happiness I've known, don't you? -- but it all seemed oddly remote, like I could see it but not be of it.

You know what I feared, Sam? I feared becoming like Gollum. Remember what he was like; unable to take joy in sunlight and sweet scents and beauty again, longing only for his Precious even though he hated it? So, even though I longed with all my heart to stay in the Shire and do all I could to help in its rebuilding and dandle your children on my lap and whatever else life held for me... I could not, Sam. I could not. Do you understand?

And how could I tell you that? You hated Gollum more than I ever did; how could I tell you what was happening to me? You may have shared the burden of the Ring with me -- and you know I'd never have got there without you, don't you? Even though it would have all been for naught without, ironically, poor twisted Sméagol -- but how could I tell you that? Would you have, could you have, understood, when I said "I fear I am becoming like Gollum", or would you have drawn away and turned your face away in disgust?

I could not, dear Sam. I could not bear to envision the look on your face. Even in imagination I could not bear to espy it.

Yes, I probably did not tell you precisely because I knew that you would try to talk me out of going. But that's why I couldn't tell you -- because you would have, no question. Oh, Sam, it would have been so easy to give in, to stay with you and take what happiness I could... but how could I burden you with me getting worse and worse, year after year? If it hadn't been for the route to the Havens I would have had to run off into the Wild somewhere.

Perhaps I did let my fears do my thinking for me, dear Sam; but with such fears there was no hope. At least none in Middle-Earth that I could see.

But please don't reproach yourself over not making me speak, dear Sam. If there was a mistake, it was my mistake. Not yours.

And don't you see, Sam? Part of the reason I'm not content is because I feel as torn in two as you did; because I am cured enough to be able to long for home, and you, and my life there -- because as I am now there is so much I could do and be. As I could not when I left.

If I could go back -- then? -- would I choose differently? I don't know, dear Sam -- as I was then, I could see no hope. If I could go back, now, as I am -- ?

But what ship could bear me back across so wide a Sea?

Would it have been worth the hurt, to stay? Not the hurts as they were, and the hurt that would have been brought to you, and Rose, and Elanor, and Frodo-lad and Rosie-lass, by seeing me... But would the hurts have got better, where I was? If they were getting harder to bear after two years, would they have been better in three, or four, or five, or ten, or -- ?

But don't reproach yourself for grieving me, dear Sam. And don't worry about saying anything out of place... if we are friends, which we were and are, and no longer master and servant, then you can and should say to me what's on your mind. I always did value your plain speaking and hobbit-sense, Sam, and the more now the Sundering Seas divide us and our only link is these letters.

And have you forgotten, Sam, that since I'm no longer 'sir' and 'Mr Frodo', you're no longer 'my Sam'? Unless I'm also 'your Frodo'. Actually, I would rather like to be 'your Frodo', if I may...

When you think of me sitting by the sea, think of me sitting there, raising a glass to Mayor Samwise -- and my own dear Sam.

Yours,

Frodo









My dearest Frodo:

After all we've been through together, I thought you'd understood that signing myself "Your Sam" has nothing to do with having been in your service! Were those days a dream? Coming back to the Shire, it surely seemed as if they must have been. Hard days for both of us, up in that spider's pass, and in that tower, yet in some ways the sweetest of my life, though likely not yours.

But I fear I might have been a bit rough in my last letter. After all, I bear some blame myself, I reckon, telling you not to talk about it up in that tower, when you did wish to talk about it. "Talking won't mend nothing," as my Gaffer would say, but meaning no disrespect to my Gaffer, I'm finding he was wrong on that count. I shouldn't wonder that you're not feeling too mended after lighting into you as I did, but I do think it is helping me to talk about our troubles as we have been, even if it is only in a few poor letters over the sea.

Isn't that the way of the Shire, though? "Least said, soonest mended." Or, "Laughter lightens the load." But seemingly there are troubles that cannot be jested away, nor ignored. Master Merry and I had us a bit of a talk not so long ago, and, begging your pardon, I ventured to speak of these letters you and me have sent, though of course I revealed nothing that I oughtn't, just spoke of how there were hurts aplenty that neither of us had known nor spoken before. And it was like someone had set the Brandywine free to rush through The Water, if you take my meaning. Why, to hear Mr. Merry, you shouldn't guess that this was the same giddy lad whose whole life was seemingly fine parties and merriment. He thinks that Mr. Pippin is in as much of a fix as me and him, but the young Took laughs off his every attempt to broach the matter. And now that Pippin's back at Tuckborough -- getting married in May, to one Diamond of Long Cleeve -- May of 1427, I should say, forgetting you don't know one year from the next over there. At any rate, Merry's letting out the house at Crickhollow and moving back into Brandy Hall; old Master Saradoc's health is failing, and Merry wishes to be close at hand to care for his father.

Speaking of fathers, my Gaffer's rather frail, but still with us. He's a tough one, my Gaffer; time and age take us all, I reckon, but the Gaffer's bound not to go without a fight! I love him, I do, and am proud to say I'm his son. If you want the truth of the matter, I think he's determined to see me Mayor before he goes. Election's on Midsummer's Day, and it's surely looking as if I'll be the next Mayor of Michel Delving. Rosie's a bit torn about that, as it means I'll be away from Bag End a fair amount on Mayoral duties, but she says she'll be proud of me, all the same.

Oh, and Rosie's expecting yet again. Sometime this autumn, and Rosie and me have been going round and round on the name. She wants a little Sam-lad, and I don't. I never much cared for my name, if you must know, and I am surely not passing it on to my young ones! I'm favouring Merry-lad -- unless, of course, it's a lass, and then I don't know what we'll call her -- not "Sam," certainly.

But about those fears of yours. (I do seem to wander a bit, without meaning to.) My dear, dear Frodo (and I hope you don't think me too forward in saying it), fearing a thing don't mean it will come to pass. Neither does hoping, alas -- but I spoke rightly, I think, in saying that you let the fear block your sight of hope. Of course you didn't see the hope, but that don't mean it wasn't there, hiding behind the clouds in front of your eyes. (And there's a bit of poetry, if you like.) Let me tell you a little secret I've kept to myself, haven't even added to our book, yet: There were times when I saw you and it seemed there was a light shining from within you. And the darker the times got for you, the more brightly that light did shine.

Oh, I don't think it was really you all lit up like a lantern, or any such thing. Nobody else never said nothing, so I reckon you looked the same as always to most folks. But it was something, though I'm not sure what; but whatever it was, I am sure of this: that light was always with you, even when all you could see was shadows.

I don't rightly know what it is I'm saying, here. Probably I ought to tear this up and start again, but I expect you're used to putting up with my foolishness. Bear with it in good humour.

Anyway, whether you would or wouldn't have got better by staying, that's all water under the bridge, I reckon. I remain convinced that the darkness would have passed, had you not tried to bear it all alone -- but as I said, I bear the fault in making you think you oughtn't speak of past troubles. Ah, if only we could do it over, how many things might we change! But there it is.

And know one thing, dear Frodo: Never, never, never were you, are you, would you be a burden to me. I should rather carry you on my back a thousand times heavier than to bear the burden of knowing you suffer alone, or the burden of your distance. What ship, indeed... but there's no helping it. What's done is done; make the best of it, and mend what can be mended between us, in the meanwhile, till it may be the ship may come to bear me back to you. One can hope.

And, too, I feel a bit shamed that I didn't say nothing in my other letters, but I wish you to know how very glad I am that you did find Mr. Bilbo again, and that whatever else you lost, you gained him. I know how very much you missed him, all those years, and what it means for you to have him again. It's wrong of me to begrudge you that, though I still see the life you might have had over here, and wish you might have found your way back to it. But do give Mr. Bilbo my fondest regards.

If I could, I would take you in my arms and hold you till all the shadows passed and you could see the light that never left you. May my poor words suffice in my stead.

The sea took you out of the Shire, but it never took you out of my heart. Come what may, you will always be my Frodo, and I will always be,

Your Sam

P.S. -- That Ted Sandyman's just put in to run for Mayor! If that don't beat all. I expect he'll get, say, a dozen votes -- or do you think I'm being too generous? - S.









My dearest Sam,

Do I owe you an apology? If so, I do apologise unreservedly; I just wanted to be sure that you knew that you no longer had to defer to me -- with your questions of "have I been too forward" and the like, I was concerned. You never could be too forward, Sam. I just wanted to be sure that was understood between us.

We've had enough misunderstandings between us, and enough times when one or the other of us bit back our words, I think -- so I will screw up my courage and say it. I wanted to be sure, with all the past and all the sundering seas between us, that I was still your Frodo. Not just your companionship -- as much as we can make it at this distance -- but your approbation has come to mean so very much to me, dear Sam; or I'm realising only now just how much it means, now we're separated beyond the bounds of the world.

The sweetest days of your life? I can't exactly say the same, but I will say that the parts I remember, the parts were you were by my side, stand like a beacon in my memory. Dear Sam. What I put you through! -- especially the times I called you "thief" -- I shudder to think of it.

But telling me to 'not talk about it' in the tower? Sam, I'd totally forgotten that! And you were right, in any case; the thing to do was to get out of there. And that's quite a thing apart from any talking I did or didn't do later, the choice was mine, to speak or be silent. And if I felt a bit pummelled after reading your last letter; well, it was merited. But it is helping, Sam; and I'm glad, very glad, that it's helping you.

What's ailing Merry? His own memories of the Orcs? His encounter with the Witch- King? -- well do I know his fell power. But you tell Master Meriadoc from me that I'm glad he spoke to you; and Master Peregrin from me, not to make the mistake I did and to talk about what's ailing him. He doesn't want to burden his fine young bride with the after effects -- oh, do pass on my congratulations, if nothing else. And tell Merry that I'm very sorry to hear his father's health is ailing and I send him every good wish. If news from one over the Sea won't send the poor old hobbit off screaming into the night.

Talking of fathers, I'm sorry to hear about the Gaffer's frailty. Is he all right otherwise? You're right, he is a tough old one, and as they say, he'll go down swinging. And yes, he'll see you become Mayor! He won't miss that for all the taters in the Shire.

And so congratulations are in order on quite another front. But what's wrong with "Sam"? I like it -- it belongs to a very dear friend of mine.

But my dear, dear Sam. Fearing something might not mean it won't come to past -- but wishing something won't happen won't mean it doesn't. I may have had a light shining within me -- dear Sam, you have the soul of a poet -- but all within my mind was shadows. And don't say it's "foolishness" -- I'm not brought to tears by mere foolishness. But a hobbit who blames himself for something his then master did or didn't do is being foolish -- and makes said former master shake his head in exasperation, Sam.

And don't be sure the shadows have passed, Sam. The darkness hasn't passed even here, beyond the Sea. I had a bad episode not so long ago: a March illness, by the feel of it. So, my dear old silly hobbit, if the Blessed Realms cannot alleviate it, you bear no blame for what you did (or didn't) do.

Oh Sam. But it would have been a burden for you to see me slide down into the darkness -- a burden you may not have been able to bear, a burden I certainly could not have borne to see you bear, a burden I fled to prevent from coming to pass. Say what you will, Sam, I don't believe any light I may or may not have borne within me could have kept away that darkness.

But here, I'm grieving you further, doubtless. Therefore I will cease.

Thank you for your kind words. Yes, it means a good deal to me to be with Bilbo. But I didn't go to be with Bilbo, Sam; I went because I could not stay. Of course, the fact that he was there too was solace... But I will give Bilbo your fondest regards; he'll be most pleased to receive them, and to hear from you.

Oh Sam. Would that I could hold you to take away all the pain I brought to you. But all I can do is send my best love and gratitude.

Do you feel a clasp upon your hand? Think of me sitting by the seashore, on the closest point to Middle Earth, stretching out my hand; that is the clasp you feel.

Your Frodo.

P.S. Ted Sandyman? Not if he stuffed the ballot-boxes from Michel Delving to Brandy Hall and back again. Ted Sandyman, indeed! -- Yr. F.









Dearest Frodo:

I'll be the judge of what burdens I can or can't bear, thank you very kindly! Any more talk of what I ought not have to bear, and I'll be bearing the next letter myself on the next ship, and bearing you back home if I have to swim the whole way with you on my back.

It's as Mr. Merry told you back at Crickhollow: We are your friends. You tell me I am your friend; well, that's what a friend does, sticks by through thick and thin, and doesn't jump ship (if you'll pardon the expression) when things look too rough to bear. No, sir. So no more of this "Sam can't bear it." Sam already bore more than you'll ever know, because you'll never see through his eyes what he saw on that road through Mordor. Bad as you were on the worst days in the Shire, you were still a sight better than you were under the Ring.

I've already seen the worst of it, Frodo. I bore that, I could bear anything.

Well, there I go again. I won't beg your pardon, for then you'll surely reprimand me again. But I will give you a bit of cheer: You will no doubt be pleased to learn that Ted Sandyman is not the new Mayor of Michel Delving. Got more votes than I'd have reckoned, but I also reckon he bought most of them with free beer.

Mayor Samwise Gamgee. That's me, just as you said. I'd surely like to know how you knew, but maybe you don't know, neither? Maybe something to do with that light -- and I can tell you, it was real, and if I could I'd show it to you myself, if any mirror would do the trick. Ask Mr. Gandalf; he'll tell you. I'm sure he saw it, too.

Why he didn't tell you, I don't know; somehow I think you would have found your hope there, if you were to find any anywhere, but maybe he reckoned you had to find it yourself, see it for yourself. In which case, all my talking won't do no good, because I don't know how to make you see what you can't or don't want to see.

Well, we're still waiting on that baby. First harvest's at hand, and it'll be another two months before the baby's due. Oh, and Elanor is growing! As quiet and serious as Fro is a scamp and a rascal and always finding his way into mischief. I'll warrant he'll be finding his way into Farmer Maggot's mushrooms someday, only it'll be the dogs afrighted of him, not the other way around. Pippin and Diamond had a fine wedding. Haven't yet told him about our letters; somehow, I don't get the impression he'd take too well to the news, yet. But one way or another Merry and I will surely try to get him into a good talk.

As for Merry, well, Frodo, the things he spoke hardly bear repeating -- and surely you don't need more dark memories to add to your own -- but there was a lot of things he (and Pippin) didn't tell us all back at Minas Tirith, about what they endured at the hands of the Orcs, most especially. Brr. I shouldn't wonder that they wished to drink and be merry and forget it all, if they could.

Oh, and the hardest thing I think I shall ever have to do as Mayor -- I hated to do it, it feels too much like giving up -- though I know you're not coming back, still, I confess I've always held a fancy that they might see fit someday to let you back, maybe after you've had a bit of healing, all proper. But then, you say you still have your fits, same as ever? That don't seem right. Maybe you'd better talk to Gandalf about that light, or talk to someone, just talking. It don't sound like just going away over sea is going to do the trick.

Anyway, I had to write up a law, on account of that damn Sandyman and his beer- soaked mates. They were challenging my right to claim the mastership of Bag End, and all of that, and so with the ink hardly dry on my certificate of Mayorship (it looks fine, too, it does!) I had to go and set in force a law saying that whoever shall pass over the sea, in the presence of reliable witnesses and with an expressed intention not to return, shall be reckoned as having forfeited any titles and properties formerly held in the Shire, and all laws pertaining to inheritance shall be reckoned as taking effect as of when the person sailed.

I hated to do it, I really did, but I saw no way out, or Sandyman would have hounded me to no end on this matter. And how could I explain to him? But know that you're not dead to me, even if I had to as good as say you were in the law just to put Sandyman and his ilk in their place. And of course you should always be welcome in Bag End, if ever there were a way to bridge that sundering sea. Why, I just might take swimming lessons, after all! And wouldn't you be surprised?

There, I know I've surely made you smile now -- haven't I?

I know I'm trying to put the best face on it, but the truth is, I miss you, Frodo. And I'm having a hard time hiding that. I don't know why they allowed us to write back and forth; maybe it would have been better if we had kept each to ourselves and tried to forget. But what am I saying? There's no forgetting, is there, not for neither of us.

Funny that you should mention March thirteenth. I was thinking especially of you, this last time, and wishing again I could be holding you to see you through. I figured you had all the peace and comfort you needed on the far side of the sea, but all the same, I closed my eyes and thought of myself just holding you, the way I hold little Elanor or Fro after a nightmare, till all the shadows pass again. That may, I hope, be of some small comfort to you. If it will help, I shall think of you likewise on October sixth. At least maybe you can think past the shadows enough to remember that I am at least with you in my thoughts, and that you are not truly alone.

Lovingly,

Your Sam









To Mayor Samwise of Bag End: greetings and congratulations.

Sam! You would do that? But I don't want to trap you here before your time -- do you really want to leave Rose and the children? But then, what am I speaking of? It can't be done -- although if will alone could find a way, you would do it.

Sam, are you saying I "jumped ship"? And was I really that bad on the way to Mordor? My memory is hazy at some points and at other times it's as if it happened to someone else, not me. Merciful, I expect.

Well, I won't say you can't bear it, dear Sam; instead I'll say what I think I said in my last letter (I don't keep copies, after all) -- you shouldn't have had to bear it. And as much as I long to see you and as much as you miss me, I still hesitate to burden you with the whole sorry mess that is my life. Do you understand me, dear Sam?

Yes, that was a bit of cheer -- and I do need it, for (and don't you dare reproach yourself!) your letters wring my heart. But you may be right about that free beer.

I don't know how I knew you'd be Mayor, dear Sam. I have had dreams (as you know) which were of things that later came to pass, but this was not one of them.

But that light! -- And Gandalf is too busy and too concerned to ask, even here. For one thing, Bilbo is declining again and Gandalf, who knew him from childhood, is very worried about him. Bilbo, though, seems happy enough -- just sleepy.

But I wish I could see it, Sam, if only for your sake.

Elanor would be eight, now? And young Fro six? How the years are passing!

Glad to hear Pippin's wedding went off well. I'm not so glad to hear that there are things Merry (and Pippin) kept back, and that the memories are troubling them. Oh my poor cousins. Oh my poor Sam! What I put you all through! That was why I wanted to go alone in the first place, if you recall; so that this wouldn't happen and I wouldn't have your hurts on my conscience. But then, as I've said many a time, I'd've got nowhere without you. I hope, if they speak of Frodo of the Nine Fingers, they mention his faithful Sam right alongside him.

But talking of the nine fingers -- it's very strange, but that finger seems to be growing back! Not all the way yet, but it's up to the last knuckle. So if my writing appears strange, that's why -- I'd just become used to writing with nine fingers, and now I'm having to get used to writing with (most of) ten again. The finger has definite teeth marks where my original one was severed -- if Gollum was here, I reckon you could take a match from it. Oh, I remember that all right -- and I remember, when he took It back, wanting to get up and regain it and yet feeling as if I was being gently but firmly held down. It was as if I could hear a voice in my mind saying: Wait.

So then if that is healing, Sam, then maybe there is also healing that we cannot see. I must confess I was disappointed that the last fit was as bad as ever -- they've been easing in intensity -- but maybe it's a pain I have to endure first for it to lessen. We can but hope.

But don't worry about the Bag End issue, Sam. After all, it is in accordance with my stated wishes. And there are witnesses: but then, they're all over on my side of the Sundering Seas. Hm. I wonder if Gandalf would sign a statement to that effect?

(Later:) I asked Gandalf about the matter when he came by to tell me about Bilbo and he gave me one of his strange looks and said "My dear hobbit, don't you realise yet that that's a boon granted to only you?" I asked him about the light and he just sighed, shook his head and gave me a look as if I'd done or said something stupid.

So he's as close as ever.

Back to inheritance: I do understand, dear Sam, so don't reproach yourself. Bilbo, after all, did the same with me, and no-one aside from the Sackville-Bagginses challenged it. But if he'd turned up again I would have made him as welcome as you, I know, would find me welcome, if there was a way to bridge the Sundering Seas.

Yes, I did smile when you mentioned swimming lessons. It also was surprising; I'd resolved, if I ever see you again, to give you swimming lessons myself. Did I ever tell you I used to swim in my boyhood? I've taken it up again, although it's quite a different matter from a beach than it was in the Brandywine! At first I just paddled in the shallows, but lately I've been swimming out and riding the waves in, as much as I can with my own body as ballast. And if the Elves thought I was strange before, they really think I'm strange now. There, I hope that brought a smile to your face.

Oh Sam. But you're right, there is no forgetting -- for either of us. Leaving Middle- Earth didn't tear you out of my heart -- in fact it only embedded you deeper. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

I wish you could be holding me to see me through, too -- but more I wish I could be holding you to ease the troubles I brought upon you. But that time, I did feel arms around me and a comforting presence. I thought it was wishful thinking...

But if anyone could reach across the Sundering Seas by will alone, it's you.

With all my love

Your Frodo









Frodo, Frodo, my dearest Frodo,

You don't bear nothing on your conscience that you haven't taken upon yourself. You spoke rightly when you say you wouldn't have got through it without us -- not only me, but all of us. The burden was not yours alone, dearest Frodo; each of us had a share in it, needfully, and I'm surprised if Mr. Gandalf hasn't said aught to that effect by now.

No, not even what happened up on Mount Doom. I always did reckon you were too hard on yourself -- you thought I didn't guess? Well, at the time, no, but I've had me a bit of time to think since those days, you know. But you were so worn out, and the Ring was so strong -- the wonder is that you made it as far as you did. The way I figured it, it wasn't so much you claiming the Ring as it was the Ring claiming you. Or maybe it was a little of both. But there was surely a part of you that resisted to the end, else I expect you'd have gone mad, and had no peace at all. But you did have peace -- do you remember that, Frodo? Do you remember the peace, even as we sat in the ashes and heat? Do you remember the hope and joy we knew in Ithilien? You cannot look only to the shadows, my dear.

Very odd, that business with your finger. I never did hear of no finger growing back. And I should expect there would be scars, even so. But that is a good thing, to think that some healing is being given you after all. After your last letter I feared all was as dark as ever. It just goes to show.

But I can't help but smile when you ask of witnesses. There's no need to go over sea to find our witnesses. Or are you forgetting me and Merry and Pippin? Four short of what's normally required, and you can be sure that Sandyman don't let anyone forget, but most folks give Ted Sandyman about as much regard as they do to a lamp-post, excepting that Sandyman don't shed no light.

Just as well. That fool Sandyman's latest gossip is that I done you in so to take it all for myself and live fat and well. Damn fool. I'd give it all to have you back again. But you know that. Sandyman don't, but he's a fool.

As for burdens... I'm already burdened with your life, and you with mine. Perhaps that is why we've been allowed the consolation of these letters. Oh, they wrench me, too, they do: Were you to write naught but a weather report, it would wrench me all the same, seeing it in your hand. But a consolation, too. Better to be wrenched than to have nothing at all. We take such as we're given, and be grateful we've that much.

Of course I shan't leave Rose -- not forever, at any rate, though if I could go on a long journey to fetch you back, I surely would. I want you both. And I want you to see the children, though they're not growing quite so fast as you've reckoned: Elanor is but six-and-a-half, and Fro only four. A rascally four, to be sure -- oh, but I wonder if you'd help me get him in line or be joining in on his mischief? I fear you'd be too easy on him, spoil him terribly, I shouldn't wonder. But I'd love to give you the chance to do so, if only I could.

Oh, and it's a lad! Rosie gave in, seeing as I was quite set on the matter -- stubborn, is what she says, and I guess she's right -- so we've a Merry Gamgee to add to the brood. Little Rosie-lass laughs to see "baby, baby" lying in his cradle, gurgling and drooling rather witlessly, as babies are wont to do, and is quite proud of how very grown up she is.

But seeing as you're so fond of the name "Sam," I'm tempted to say, have one of your own, but seeing as no Hobbit-lasses went over sea with you I reckon you can't very well, unless you can find an Elf maiden who'd wish to marry a Hobbit. If it can be done, that is. At any rate, you were never the marrying type, were you, so I reckon even if you had a whole Shire full of nice Hobbit ladies over there, there'd still be no Samwise Baggins. Tell you what, I'll see if I can't persuade one of your cousins on the Baggins side to name a lad "Sam," in honour of "Mr. Frodo's express-spoken wishes to me." And then we'll both be happy: Another Sam in the world, but I won't be the one responsible.

I should have liked very much to have you teach me to swim. Build up your strength, and see if one of these days you can't swim clear across the sea back to me. Are we both smiling, now?

I thought of you again on October sixth, and hoped especially you might know for yourself that light that shines in you. If you can't see the light, just take me on my word. It's there. Remember that, and remember me remembering you always.

Happy Yule. May 1428 bring you peace and joy --

Ever,

Your Sam









My dearest Sam,

My, you do give effusive greetings. Not that I'm complaining by any means ... were we on the same side of the sea, that one would earn you an embrace that would test your ribs.

But as for burdens: yes, Gandalf did say "take someone you can trust" as you reminded me at Crickhollow. But I can't not have it on my conscience that I drew you all into this, even if you did come of your free will (you did, didn't you, Sam? Even though both Gandalf and Elrond charged you to go with me -- maybe they both knew I'd never have made it without you) -- because of the Quest, you're all as scarred in your own ways as I am. Even if it was by your choice that you came, it still wrings my heart.

And as for Mount Doom; yes, I've been told over and over again by Aragorn, Gandalf, Elrond and Galadriel that no-one else could have resisted the Ring as long as I could. And yes, I do remember the peace -- but I, at least, thought that the Quest was done and my sufferings were nearly over. My one grief was that you would die with me, glad as I was to have you with me.

And you know, I never thought about my not going mad if the Ring was taken from me -- "half-wise" indeed, you're wiser than I am in so many ways, dear Sam. I was sure, so sure, that I would go mad if it was taken with me, or die when it ended. I was spared. But in some ways I still desire it: in March, as you probably guessed. That's the hardest thing to bear. The knife-wound and the poisoning hurt more, but that chills my heart.

I cannot look only to the shadows, dear Sam? But what do I do when shadows are all that I can see?

I'm as surprised as you are about the finger. Not even Beren One-Hand grew anything back, seemingly... But the Elves, when I question them, are all giving me knowing smiles as if there's something I should know or guess about it. I can't figure it out for the life of me.

Sam, when I was talking about witnesses, I was talking about witnesses to my leaving you my worldly goods, not the fact that I'd sailed! Although I did make the arrangements before I left, as you know. Obviously some are not prepared to accept that I did not intend to come back, as they were when Bilbo left after the Party. I do hope it's not because I left it all to you and not to a Baggins -- it had better not be. Besides, no-one could look after it better.

But I'd forgotten that you, Merry and Pippin could bear witness that I'd gone with the intent of not returning!

As for Sandyman's gossip, he sounds like Otho and Lobelia at their worst. Though I shouldn't speak ill of the dead, and Lobelia did mellow at the end, poor thing. But do you think if you got Sandyman an umbrella he'd take the hint?

And you disposing of me to get your inheritance -- ? Has he lost his wits? Damn fool, indeed. As if you'd do such a thing, even if you had coveted Bag End. And I know you'd give it all up to have me back, which is one of the many, many reasons I left it to you. (I'm sure you know or can guess the rest.) But regardless, it is yours; nothing alters that.

You could be right about the letters. Certainly we're tied together beyond the boundaries of the world. But whether it's to ease our parting, or because there's still unfinished business between us (we're saying a lot of things we never said when we were both on Middle-Earth) or for some other reason that we cannot foretell, or both, I do not know. But if it is solely to ease our hearts, I wouldn't be without it. Bless you for taking the initiative and sending that first letter.

I asked Gandalf recently how the letters got to you and he only shook his head. I asked if anything could sail back, as I'd never seen ships sail to Middle-Earth, and he said there had been voyages back, but not since the breaking of the world when Numenor fell. I asked, if he had come from the west, if he had come before or after Numenor, and he said "After -- but I am a different case entirely, my dear Frodo. "And in Gandalf fashion, he would say no more.

Thank heavens you wouldn't leave Rose -- you wouldn't be the hobbit I thought you were if you did, or the Sam I know, but the way you were talking you had me worried. Poor Sam, are you still torn in two? -- oh, but if only I could come back. And yes, I probably would spoil the children rotten, if only I could -- if they weren't afraid of someone who took strange at least twice a year, that is. But I don't know about leading Frodo-lad into more mischief -- my mischief days are long past. And I wouldn't just spoil my namesake, I'd spoil them all -- but not to the point of ruin, or Rose would throw me out. Just... indulge them, while making sure they know how lucky they are.

Ah, if only it could be.

And congratulations on the birth of young Merry-lad. I'm glad Rosie-lass likes her new little brother!

A little Sam of my own? It can't be done. No, I never was the marrying type before I left, and even if there was one willing, I wouldn't now. To put it bluntly, dear Sam, I don't know what the knife, the poison and the Ring have done to me, and I could not risk any harm being passed on.

But that idea of one of the Bagginses naming a son for you has merits...

As for swimming; even if I practiced until I could swim back, I don't know if it is possible; the way it was explained to me, Middle-Earth is bent but the road to the Blessed Isles is straight, and somehow we took that straight path. But if I could, I would go into training forthwith. I hope that made you smile. Yes, it made me smile -- with tears in my eyes.

Thank you for thinking of me last October 6th. It was still a hard spell, but all the time it was as if a pair of loving arms were around me, holding me up, and that made it easier to bear. But I still can't see that light. Maybe I sha'n't until you show it to me.

May 1428 bring you all you desire.

With all my love,

Your Frodo









Well, Frodo, my Gaffer's gone. Can't hardly call it untimely -- he was a hundred and two -- but it does leave a hole in the heart, all the same. My work keeps me busy, which helps me to put it out of mind, at least for a while. It helps to have Rosie, and my brothers and sisters. Sad for all of us.

I'll try to write more, later. Right now I don't much feel up to it, but I thought you should like to know about the Gaffer.

Give my fondest regards to Mr. Bilbo.

Always,

Your Sam









Sam:

Bilbo is dead.

I am alone.

Everyone has been very kind, but I feel utterly bereft.

Please write. I need you more than ever.

Frodo









My dearest Sam,

I got your letter shortly after I sent mine. It's plain that you hadn't got mine yet.

Just in case it went astray, I'll repeat my sad tidings. Bilbo is dead. Probably around the same time as your Gaffer.

Oh, Sam, I'm so sorry. I know what this grief must be to you. Both Bilbo and I were very fond of the Gaffer, and I know Bilbo valued him highly as a gardener without compare; he said to me that he couldn't have had a better to look after Bag End's gardens. It's somehow fitting that they go at about the same time; after all, your Gaffer was more Bilbo's gardener.

I can't say much more, dear Sam; I'm still literally dazed with grief. But think of me holding you in shared love and grief.

Oh, how I wish I could come home.

With all my love,

Frodo









My dearest Frodo,

If the Gaffer was here, he'd surely be calling me a thousand hard names for putting my foot in it. But I had no way of knowing, of course, and I'm sure you understand that. They gave me your letter as I was giving them mine to you, and of course I didn't stop to read it just then. I shall send this just as quickly as I may, and hope that it might be a comfort to you.

I can't hardly see to write this. You write of tears? Aye, I've tears enough to float me out to sea and back. It wrenches me terribly to think what you must be going through. I suppose if it was not untimely for the Gaffer, it was even less so for Mr. Bilbo, but somehow I'd always pictured him still being there to keep you company, and the both of you to greet me someday, should they grant me to sail.

And you? What if I should sail, and find you are no longer there to meet me? I should dearly like to see the Elves, of course, and Mr. Gandalf, and the Lady Galadriel one more time, if I may, but without you -- I honestly don't know if I should find the land so blest without you at my side.

Funny, that. When I think of Rivendell, and Lorien, and all, it's not the Elves I remember most, nor the singing, nor even the magic; it's you, by my side, that stands out in memory. I wonder if it shouldn't be the same even on the other side of the sea.

Oh, promise me you'll not leave before me! I do wish I could bring you back, and give you such comfort as I may, poor though it may be. I don't have no Elven magic, but if I could, I should gladly take you in my arms and share your sorrows, as much as anyone can, and make you less lonesome.

The spring has never been lovelier. I wish I could bring some of it to you, and plant it in your heart, and water it, till it took deep root and would never again let go. And light -- the light shining on it would surely make it grow, strong and green, laughing at the winter past.

Never mind what you see, my dear Frodo. There's a time for seeing, and then there's a time for hoping. The whole point of hoping is that there might be something better that we can't see, just around the next bend. Hold fast to hope, Frodo, even -- no, especially when it looks like there's no reason in the world, or beyond, to hope. That's when you need it most.

You are never out of my thoughts.

Please do write as soon as you feel able. I shall be holding you close in my heart, even if the seas keep me from holding you any closer than that.

With love, always,

Your Sam









My dearest Sam:

Oh Sam. I don't know what to say.

Well, I do, and I can hear you saying 'just say it, then' so I'll just say it.

I'm coming home.

There, do you hear that? I'm coming home. (And you can probably hear me shouting that from the other side of the Sea.) Are you smiling yet, dear Sam?

How? I don't know. But it will be done.

Why? Well, there's a tale.

Everyone's, as I may have mentioned a time or two, noticed me hanging around the seashore and gazing across the water. Remember those strange looks? Where I just thought they thought I was odd? Evidently that wasn't the half of it.

They knew I was yearning for something.

They knew I needed something that wasn't here, in the Blessed Realm.

Of course Gandalf, knowing me, knowing us all, the best, put it together. Though he didn't tell me, oh no, he make his usual vague hints and looked at me until I saw it for myself.

I'm not happy here, especially now that Bilbo is gone. And I'm not happy without you, and never will be. And I miss the dear old Shire, and the hills and streams and fields and woods of Middle-Earth.

And I will have no further healing here. Not now. At least, I will have no further healing without you.

Even Bilbo said, "You'll not be happy without Sam, will you?" Before he died. And he charged me that if a way could be found, that I would promise to at least consider going back.

Dear Bilbo. Do you think he knew?

Though I'm not going because me made me promise to consider it. I want you to understand that, dear Sam. I'm going because I want to come home. To you.

But dear Bilbo. May he rest in peace with your Gaffer.

When I asked Gandalf, "did you not foresee this?" he said only, "Even the wise cannot see all ends."

THEN he said, "There is a way back, if you wish it."

I said, "How?"

He said, "A way will be opened. It will happen. If you wish it."

I didn't quite leap at the chance, dear Sam -- I thought on it for all of, say, ten seconds. Then I said: "There will still be the pain."

"Yes," he said.

"But the pain of being separated from Sam is worse."

He raised his eyebrows but said, "Yes."

"And if I am with Sam, and among my kind, I won't have to bear it alone."

"No."

"And the Shire is my home."

"Yes," he said with one of his looks.

"Then I will go back," I said to him.

As if there was any doubt.

It may be strange for someone to be rejoicing at leaving the Blessed Realms, but I feel like dancing and singing for joy.

And no matter how bad the pain that will come may be, I feel I can face it, knowing ou are there with me.

This is our last letter, Sam. It's only going on ahead so you know when I'm coming. I suspect you will want to meet me off the boat, after all!

Will you meet me at the Havens, Sam? I will be there when the leaves turn gold.

With my dearest love,

Your Frodo




THE END



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